imagine being me

2010-08-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

gonna start blogging again...

2009-07-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

hey sweetz...

sorry 4 not updating my blog...

anyways...i feel so blue today.

i have been trying to understand the things that happened lately...

4 now... thats all i can say...

i still love him more than anything.

2009-06-05T11:45:00.002+08:00

hey readers....

yesterday i met up with amany and fas... like finally~~!! hahhaha
we met at bugis to have our late lunch and then off to marina barrage... took tonz of picture and played a game which SOMEONE kept on losing je eh~~!!!(point at fas)BAAAAH!!!!
sooo fun...
anyways... we catch up on alot of stuff sey..,. we also reminisce about those times in high school.... oh how i wish i could turn back time. miss them all... its funny how things changed so fast, it felt like yesterday i'm still eating my mee boyan at school... hahha... ah well although theres lotsa ups and downs with them... i'd still miss them and treasure them alot.
theres a big chance that i'll be meeting up with amany and fas again next week... our plan is to pamper ourselves.... fas will pick the spa for us *wink* cant wait to release all those stress in my body... hahaah

oh btw... babylove will head back to sg on the 17th june(not 100% confirm) but still wanna keep my fingers cross. miss babylove so much.

*pictures will be upload soon enough ok sweeties*

2009-05-30T16:25:00.011+08:00

its suhaila's wedding today...
i am sooo happy for her... but it really reminded me of how things will end up between babylove and i...
Gosh... i soo wanna get married u know... i'm not getting any younger... and now some of my frenz have babies!!!!
but u know... both of us are still studying and stuff so... i guess its not gonna happen right away...

this month am very distracted and busy of coz... my mummy and daddy went for their umrah and i need to work as usual.... i've been cancelling my date with fas and atiqah... but we'll be meeting up soon enuf k babes...

anywayz... went out with seka and aun yesterday, had soo much fun and i shop like crazy... i felt so relief aft shopping sey.... been awhile since i last shop... and my clothes are like so boring now...

people people pleaaase!! socialize with me! haha.

ok gotta poop.

2009-04-24T01:26:00.002+08:00

Madly in love with the same person...

I know i should be sleeping ryte now... but i kept thinking of my baby boo... i wonder if he's thinking of me too... hehehe..

anyway... just now i went to the mall just 2 watch 4 movies.... it was fun... i know its i should've studied but i juz wanna rest my almost-burst mind... its soo frustrating when u have to look at a bunch of words and phrases to memorize...

i cant wait to go home....
i really need to catch up on some friends back at home....
miss them loads.

as for my mr perfect....
i'll be waiting for ur return...
gotta bunch of stuff i wanna show u and surprise u...

L.O.V.E

2009-04-14T11:12:00.003+08:00

hey guys...
yesterday was my 17 mth anniversary with my one and only...
cool kan... hehe
but sadly... again we cant celebrate...
these past few weeks were sooo annoying for the both of us coz lil miss bitch decided to come back and ruin our relationship... but that was taken care of... i wont elaborate further, wouldnt wanna ruin her reputation... like ppl say "biar orang buat kat kita jangan kita buat kat orang"
exams starts this friday and i am sooo nervous. i cant study at sg u know... tooo many temptation.

k gtg

2009-04-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

Now who's right there
Every time you cry
Go to sleep
And wake up on your side
Endless love
I'll always provide
They hatin' on us
And you should know why

But who's been lovin' you lately?
Who's willin' to go half on the baby?
Who, who, who's tryin' to flag our ship?
They just tryin' to get the love you give
But baby

Tell me what they know about my love (my love)
Tell me what they know about my love (my love)
Tell me what they know about my love (my love)

So they don't understand
Why I'll never leave you
Explain my love
I don't need to
Got everybody way up
In our business
'Cause leaving each other
Stay on they wish list

I see them reaching everytime
You call me baby
They on my back like a shirt
Get off me baby
They don't love me
Let 'em wonder why
Here to stay
And they goin' bye bye

Who's the one calling you baby?
Who's in love with yo ass like crazy?
Who, who, who's tryin' to flag down ship?
Just tryin' to get the love you give
Baby

my love is your love
And there ain't nothing in this world
That they can do to make me give you up
baby
You will always be mine
So let 'em do whatever
Say whatever
'Cause I ain't givin' u up

No, they don't know

The dream ft mariah carey

2009-04-09T21:42:00.002+08:00

4 days and i love u more...

so i reached home at 8pm... i miss sg sooo much... and most importantly... i miss him, his voice and his presence.. i dont know why.. but i feel closer to him when i'm in sg eventhough his still far away...

anyway... today was boring and tiring... no great story to post. hahaha

Cant wait for our 17mth anniversary... I wanna celebrate it with you... :(

2009-04-08T18:32:00.003+08:00

Hey people...
Today was sooo busy... went to pay all my fees and such... i ate lunch+dinner at 2+...
i cant stop but feeling blue... reasonless cries almost a few times...
at this point of time, i wanna really concentrate on my upcoming exams, but its so hard when u have to deal with heartless ppl taking advantage of u and miss slutty bitch trying to steal ur bf... i seriously feel that i have no tyme 4 all this nonsense... but it bothers me soo much u know... especially when he is far away... sometimes i want him to do the imposibble 4 me... but that wont be fair ryte...
i need my bf.... :'(
i think i'm gonna distract myself now...

trying to pick up the pieces that never fall.....

2009-04-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

I hate changes... especially when it comes from you...

2009-04-03T20:57:00.003+08:00

~Popcorn~

2weeks till exams...prepared?

hmmm.... not yet... i've been going out with my frens, wasting time and watching movies all day long... exams is like the last thing on my mind ryte now... well i'll be expecting not-so-good results... i've finished all my assignments though...thats a relief... i'm left with a speech 4 tuesday's class... i'm extremely tired now...

i watched confession of a shopoholic by myself today... i sat between two couples... i feel like a complete pest sey... i laugh and talk to myself like a psycho... the movie was quite nice... i can relate to it...

anyways...

met with seka afterwards and we catch another movie... 12 rounds... then guess wat, typical m'sian guy sit infront of us with his gf and disgustingly stare at us like a pervert( he stared like from the beginning of the movie till we gt out of the movie)... his looks is not even above average~! surprisingly, he's gf doesnt even realise sak... haha... so funny... then my friend and i sindir2 that guy... we're like a total bitch sey... wahaha~

was a fun day i'd say... tomorrow we'll be goin out again... sheesha-ing and window shopping... possibly catch another movie... dragon ball perhaps...

i miss mama and papa...

2009-03-27T13:37:00.001+08:00

It was this particular song in my blog that made me teared up...

coz i miss u so much and theres nothing i can do to ease the pain...

But i'm not officially missing u...

i've missed u since the moment u stepped away from that bus...

:'(

2009-03-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

For my perfect boyfriend :

Love...

If only u knew that everyday i think of u and missing u...

if only u can see me here constantly looking at ur pictures hanging on my wall...

please realise that i am still waiting... and never tired of waiting...

I am always here... and my heart stays in love with u...

For readers :

I have tonz of pictures to post but unfortunately i am very busy....

will be uploading them soon k...

i've got piles of assignments and test.... hope i do well sey...

oh and i'm growing like 4 pimples on my cheek! aaaaaaaaaah!!!!!! i've never have pimples on my cheek!!! i'm tooo stress out abt this studying thing... i wish i can magically become genius u know... but those stuff only exist in dreamland... i noe... i'm lame.

i miss my family and my boyfriend... i feel like crying... uweeek~~~ uweeek~~

ok lovez all...

2009-03-13T20:38:00.004+08:00

Today mark my 16th month anniversary... more than anything i want him to be with me right now.... *sigh*

but i guess that wont happen for a while... i'll be seeing by mid june or so... hopefully.

So it was Ilyana and Syara's belated birthday... planned to bowl but we decided to watch a movie... pretty stupid movie i'd say... haha... "rasukan ablasa".... the acting was sooo fake and the ghost.... instead of being scary, it was unealistic and funny~ seven of us was laughing like mad people... haha... anyways it was a great outing... i had so much fun.

with love,

2009-03-05T13:10:00.008+08:00

i'm a girl.... thats wat i do...

hey guys~~!

i'm going back to sg at 4.30pm~

soooo excited...

i'm not sure wat to update at this point of tyme...

i am not busy at all.... hahaha...well yeah... i have like gazilion tons of assignment but i did it all... just need to have the finishing touch... ahahaa...k wateva...

my subjects for this semester are extremely boring~! not to mention philosophy~! mother of all boredom~haaaaa~!

i hope i get straight A's like the 1st semester... wudnt wanna disappoint my parents.

so anyway...

previous wednesday we had a themed party with the year 3 NIE's, the theme was jln ampas... my fwens and i were juz crashing.... we werent exactly invited... haha... and to top it all of... non of us wore themed costume....haha...

hey.... we came 4 free food.... might as well wear a sweat pants.... hahaha...

on the 15th march will be having another party (dinner and dance) at a hotel... the theme will be "pofessional black and white"...

will be taking lotsa pictures~!

another 8 days of reminiscing.... i love u....

2009-03-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

Talk to me about love...

It happens when u least expected...

everything feels so right when its all wrong...

its not just in the air... its everywhere...

there's... no such thing as exhaustion...

just the fact that u WANT to go extra miles for it without complaining..

idiotically stupid...

brain-freezingly irrelevant...

tastelessly sweet...

u will definitely see things differently...

positively wrong...

poetically make sense...

what is there to say about love?

"where art thou love?"

are u listening to the song i sang 4 u?

are u always here making sure i'm safe?

am i insane 4 trusting u...

am i about to get an endless heartache 4 waiting 4 u..

ok well the rain kinda makes me wanna be jiwang... so anyways...i've been in my room doing nothing but eat junkfood and watch movies... its so boring here... i wanna go back to sg la.... the internet here is freakin slow and the rain is getting into my last nerve... well yeah... sure its nice to sleep the whole day in this kinda weather but hey... i wanna go out 4 cryin out loud... i dun wanna stuck myself in this mudhole filled with endless boring activities such as NOTHING~! nodda... not a single activity that i can even do... hahahaha... ok stop...

i realise tat i've been complaining sey...

lovez u guys.

2009-02-22T16:09:00.018+08:00

hey psychos...

i'm just trynna waste a lil bit of tyme..

so i upload lil bit of kak akmar's wedding pixxiez...

here goes

kak Akmar's wedding...

it was like a reunion with my old frens...

after the wedding, we decided to have an after party coz we kinda need to catch up with wat everyonez doin nowadays...

it was great.

The after party...

2009-02-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

hey readers...
i'll be goin back to campus tomorrow...
super duper lazy man...
anywayz..
i really miss hanging out with my boyfren though i am really having lots of fun here with my close frenz... i'm still counting the days till he comes back... its like forever sey... haish...

2009-02-15T17:50:00.010+08:00

Valentines with my sweetz...

we planned on xchanging gifts but it was too sudden, so we catch a movie and lepakz.

2009-02-11T10:16:00.002+08:00

Hey readers..

i wanna let the world know that i miss my boyfriend sooo much...

and he likes me taking pix like this....

so this pix is dedicated to him... hahahaha

toodles psychos.

2009-02-09T11:40:00.002+08:00

Remember those walls I built?

Well, baby they are tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make a soundI found a way to let you in

But, I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakened

Every rule I had, you break it

It's the risk that I'm taking

I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby, I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby, I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away...

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You're the only one that I want

Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again

But this don't even feel like falling

Gravity can't forget

To pull me back to the ground again

It's like I've been awakened

Every rule I had, you break it

It's the risk that I'm taking

I'm never gonna shut you out...

beyonce'

2009-02-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

God...

please make me feel better than yesteday...

if i can preserve that day... i'd do it without a doubt...

but if i knew how hurtful things have changed about the way you love me...

i'd shut my heart and ran away...

God...

please make my heart work again...

2009-01-31T18:42:00.002+08:00

*2009*

My dose of laughter

Hey loyal readers...

i've been goin through 2009 with joy... new friends,new roommate and new clothes... haha... i will always miss that special someone eventhough things had been really rough lately... still... i adore him... hee...

My free tyme was eaten up by my primary sch frens... they are like the coolest and funniest frens ever... hahaha... its like laughing non stop~~

we've been together since primary sch and still can crack new and funny jokes... hope to see them again next week k loves....

anyway.... abt my roommate... she's from china and she's like freakin cute and adorable... but believe it or not... she's 1 year older than me... yet she look so petite... she's taking master... and i'm still stuck in my degree... i guess i can still endure another 2 years +... haha..

damn... i'm getting older... willl u marry me asap? BAHAHAHAHA

so surprise surprise... i've gain weight... eat like gazilion tons of food and still hungry for more... jogged almost like every nyte and my behind is still huge like a balloon...

i thoug....

aargghh...da la... penat je asek type.... bahhahah

continue next tyme when i'm not lazy... nyahahaha

toodles psychoss...

2008-12-26T22:42:00.002+08:00

Tired...Under pressure and Unappreciated...

2008-12-25T18:18:00.002+08:00

Please make me feel closer to him...

these days it seems so distance... and ultimately... far away...

no conversation,no words that can make me feel secure and calm..

it sucks coz there's nothing i can do abt it.. or u...

my hope is for all the success u want and need...

i cant stop these feelings of uncertainty,unsure,paranoid and mostly.... missing you badly... :(

But... all i know is the hopes and faith i have in you is so strong...

i count every second of every minute of every hour of every day for u to come back...

and i never stop...

for every heartache that i have to wait...

there's always a thought of ur face... and ur loyalty... and ur trust... and ur support... and ur LOVE...

strengthen me... help me...

i'm a stronger person i'm sure...

so why do i feel so weak?

i guess its bcoz of you...

cliche as it may sound...

but you are... and will always be my weakness...

so please... let every chirping bird in this world, or the soothing wind, send my message to him...

that more than anything... i am always thinking of him... missing him... and still waiting...

Love always,

MARIA

2008-12-14T19:53:00.057+08:00

Hey everyone....

i went to indonesia to look at my dad's school,home for the orphanage and land.. oh not to forget... i also went to my cousins house... enjoyed loadz...

anyways... just a quick update... itz already been 13mths being with him... love u crazy still...

enjoy the pictures readers...

introducing... my kakak

me... acting sexy...haha...
aaah.... my palace...

she's so big now... my small sister

Big suite,big bed.... what else?

literally being a princess...

nenek mona (my grandma's bestfren),random kampong girl and mua...

the face tellz it all... she does not like u sis...haha

auuuwww... btw...behind is pokok kayu manis..~

Dad's land.. so big...

Hot? not?

Pokok kayu manis...~ smells really nice

Vogue 1

vogue 2

Daddy~

Daddy busy

Daddy's land

Me... its a really nice view 4 taking pix here

kak mas

nice view

cute

love it here

on the way...

pix at the hotel... sadly tak jadi...

daddy's home 4 the orphanage

Havent fully done yet

After qurban at my cousin's house

romeo and juliet... they've been together for 50years and they are still in love like crazy... cute can~~!

pondok

reached indonesia at last~

i miss him...

Camwhoring

again...

and again..

triplets

hmmm....

different faces~

Daddy.. romeo and juliet...

ok well... thats it... more to come and hopefully gd stuff... thnx for all my frens who tagged me.... sory i cant reply but i really appreciate it ok... love y'all...

2008-12-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

I LOVE U STILL.....

2008-12-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

If I were a boy

Even just for a day

I’d roll outta bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted then go Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls

I’d kick it with who I wanted

And I’d never get confronted for it.

Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he’s taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it’s broken

So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone

I’d put myself first

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’d be faithful

Waitin’ for me to come home

It’s a little too late for you to come back ...

But you’re just a boy

You don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl someday

You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her

You don’t care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you’ve taken her for granted

And everything you have got destroyed...

2008-11-29T19:48:00.002+08:00

The last tyme i saw u was 29days 23hours and 49min ago....

i still cry my endless tears for u...

nothing but ur jacket to hug... nothing but your pictures to look at... nothing but our memories to hold on to...

till now... when i close my eyes... u r the only person i see...

at this very minute i still remember how hurtful the last tyme i cried...

and when u come back to me...

i'll always be here.... waiting for u...4 hours earlier than the last tyme...

and when u come back to me...

i will hug u tighter...

and when u come back to me...

i will cry harder...

and when u comeback to me...

i will love u stronger...

2008-11-24T20:46:00.010+08:00

wow...

i've not been blogging for what? 5-6 mths ago? hahahah

been busy as usual with study and stuff...

and now its holiday and i am still freaking busy...

i'm gonna work 6days a week for 8hours and then sell some fruits then go to the gym...

my schedule are prreeettty tyte... well atleast for 1 mth...

so here are some pictures b4 leaving campus...

of coz gerls gotta have fun with our freedom no?

hee~

well.... there will be more pictures to come...

i'm juz so darn tired ryte now...

loves all of u sweet readers.

muah.. tonz of love.

2008-11-21T12:21:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone...

i will start updating my blog on monday ok...

hee~~~

lotsa pix~

muah

2008-06-25T23:07:00.003+08:00

its been quite sum tyme since i last blog....

well... not much to say this couple of months....

i've juz been travelling and such....

but the best thing is dat i've been sharing my days and months with sum1 special... hehe

hmm...

i'm getting fatter la u guyz...

cant stop eating junkfood due to my idiotic depression of leaving singapore...

hahahahaha...

oh and i've been having alot of stubborn zits on my forehead and nose...

wth...

do u still love me then?

oh oh oh wait...

taggy repliesssss....

mady : heres ur update sweety....keep in touch yar...

hyder : ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapuuun~~~~

hotsista : aloha fatty flabby... wait for ur hot jewish twins aye? come home asap laaa... wahliou~

ashie : hey dear... i'm great... how about u? bet ur still as sweet as ever huh~~

2008-06-13T19:19:00.002+08:00

7 months passed by so quickly...
All the qualities that i found in you seems so endearing...
i will never trade u for anything in the world... coz u are my perfect pair...

2008-03-10T18:25:00.002+08:00

If I had no more time

No more time left to be here

Would you cherish what we had?

Was it everything that you were looking for?

If I couldn't feel your touch

And no longer were you with me

I'd be wishing you were here

To be everything that I'd be looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift

And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me

'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me

Hold me like this is the last time

Every time you kiss me

Kiss me like you'll never see me again

Every time you touch me

Touch me like this is the last time

Promise that you'll love me

Love me like you'll never see me again

How many really know what love is?

Millions never will

Do you know until you lose it

That it's everything that we are looking for

When I wake up in the morning

You're beside me

I'm so thankful that I found

Everything that I been looking for...

Dedicating this to all u love birdz out there...
and you... My sacrifice...

2008-02-28T18:30:00.002+08:00

i can still feel the heartache when u left....

i still remember the day i breakdown coz i wasnt ready to let u go....

i still hold on to the last wordz u said to me when u turn ur back on me...

i can still taste the bitterness of ur blowing kiss after u wave good bye...

i still soaked my pillow with my overflowing tears almost everynyte remembering what thingz wud be like if i can juz spend another minute with u... juz another minute please...

i could tell how much u still love me even with my eyes close... So perfect itz painful....

Your like my favorite song...
And i'm saving my last dance for u... only u...

2008-02-23T22:51:00.028+08:00

Graduation day was.... well...no comment...

wat matter most is that i had so much fun with my frenz... letz skip everything and go to the pictures shall we?

oh wait... i wanna thank Ha5 for alwayz helped me in everything... she's a very loyal and great fren.

i still hav a long way to go... and i'm now 21!!!

gosh i'm like sooo old oredy~! how how how...

oh my future husband....when will we meet? i hope not 30.

bahahaha~!

it became clearer to me when u cry with me...

P.S : I will always love u.

2008-02-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

went out wif seka yeserday... was fun... we talked alot... reminiscing... from sneaking into an NC16 movie to our failed relationshipz and the people we've met... though we've changed we're still the same... hehe... ahhh.... miz those dayz...

anywayzz...

due to my car accident that occured ard 5 dayz ago? hmmm.... i had to take public... surprisingly... it was great... itz been like wat... 1 or 2 monthz hmmm.... myb 3 months since i last took the train...

we only went to tamp mall... i bought shoes for my convocation... then we ate dessert and talk somemore...

lovez it.

2008-02-20T15:27:00.002+08:00

Caught in an accident 3 days ago... nothing major...but have to pay a huge sum of money for my car... and itz totally unfair coz it wasnt even my fault... oh well...wat can i say... life's unfair... anyway... 3 dayz ago i had a very2 bad day... dun get me started with that... i did not even get to enjoy my "hang out" with mun...
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by the end of the day....

he stopped everything and made me smile again...

so anyway.... i havent done my essay for american university....

i'm so lazy ryte now... fylz like pampering myself....

i realise i havent been blogging for quite some time...

busy and lazy....

thatz all i can say....

but dont worry.... i'll be posting about my graduation this coming saturday~

oh and there will be pictures... dun worry ashie.... i'll put lotsa 'em... haha

Lazy bum outz.

2008-01-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

I wanna meet him.... i wanna meet him.... i wanna meet him....

HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU!

2008-01-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

Hey readers...

lemme tell u something abt what i regret the most at this tyme...

unable to tell how i really feel abt this particular fren of mine....

up til now... theres so many things i wanted to tell her... though the words are on the tip of my tongue... i juz cant quite say it...

things change...people change... but the frenship that we hold on for so long juz doesnt fade away...

hesitation...
i hesitate...
i tried to tell her how i really feel abt her... abt the frenship that once lost... but i delayed that moment...

if u are reading this...
i juz wanna let u know that u are the most true,honest and a very genuine person i have ever met... and i am soooo honoured and proud to be ur fren...

i hope we can still keep in touch...

take care mady....

________________________________________

Now~~!!

can i scream my lungs out??!!

here goes....

AAAAAAAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHH~~~!!!

I AM SO LUCKYYYY~~~~

wanna noe y?! wanna noe y??!!!

hahahaha~~~~

to be continued...... (i love curious ppl~)

muackz!

2008-01-08T13:51:00.000+08:00

It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?
And where are you now,
now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight

destiny's child

2007-12-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

You have to realise that no 1 can alwayz be there for u... u have to be there for urself... independence is such a strong word... if u can rely on independence... u r a strong person.

so here i am.... feeling pissed off by things that shudnt be hurtful... and thot that u can juz wait for a minute to be there... guess i was wrong...

so now i noe i have to be there for myself...

have a nice day guyz... and... well i'm getting fatter....

resolution?

stay healthy.

C'MON 2008... GIMME YOUR BEST SHOT.

2007-12-31T21:35:00.000+08:00

4 wordz...

TODAY WAS FUCKED UP

2007-12-24T11:24:00.000+08:00

Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose.

so when u have everything...and u know u've succeeded in every challenges that occur... think again... u still have another distance to go... and along the way u'll make mistakes and fall... but...

Go ahead...Fall down...The world looks different from the ground

juz know that u've learned... and u have the strength to pick urself up... coz no one can help u but urself...

Life is not an illusion... itz not a dream that will fade away the next morning u wake up...

u cant depend on anyone to solve ur own problem... decisionz are made from ur heart...ur brain...ur intuition...ur instinct... ppl around u are juz supporters...

2007-12-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

When u have nothing to say...

dun pretend like u do...

2007-12-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

Can you explain to me why i can only float when i'm looking at you?

Do you know that time tickz slower when i'm without you and faster when i'm with you...?

Love is not blind... it wantz to see more and willing to see less...

2007-12-12T22:13:00.001+08:00

You're the only one that knows me,

love it when you hold me,

never find a love like this

now I'll never be lonely,

look at what you've shown me,

never find a love like this

Well this life tried to keep us apart

you keep calling me back to your heart

I'm so glad you found me,

wrap your world around me,

never find a love like this.

All the guys tried to take me,

you're the one who saved me,

I feel like I owe you my life.

And as strange as it may seem,

I'll go if you take me

I'm willing to sacrifice.

2007-12-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

let the picturez do the talking....

2007-12-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

back from bali...

i loved it there.... itz way better than i expected... i will most definitely go there again... honey moon perhapz? hahaha

aNywayyyzzzz....

i missed singapore no doubt... and now i'm finally home....

so herez a story...
well i did enjoy every single day at bali... but in between i've been making alot of thinking u know... mostly about love...

well well.... no surprise there... i bet everyone already thot of that ryte... how they want the perfect guy/girl... or the perfect marriage... or even how far they can last wif their partner...

i for 1 made alot of mistakez in my life that sumtymez i dun even think that love really exist... i must admit that i did hurt alot of ppl and was hurt by alot of ppl.

however it became clearer to me that love is not everything in a relationship...itz not juz first sight attraction nor izzit purely lust...

itz how connected u feel to that person... whenever or wherever that person may be... itz how the chemistry still workz even from a far... itz how time doesnt matter... therez alot of "itz how..." i must say...

but overall....

we cant really predict when real love can strike ya know... when it happenz...it will juz happen...
sumtymez... even the person u had a crush on for a few yearz isn't the person u wanna be wif... or the person u've been having relationship for more than 5 yearz juz werent the ryte person u wanna b wif...

the feelingz that i felt alot of tymez died a long tyme ago... itz juz doesnt feel like "love"... itz more of a... well curiosity.

Him.... the person i would like to give my whole heart to... "mr. imperfect but right for me"

YOU... whom i called MY superman... MY knight in shining armor... MY guardian angel... who will alwayz look out for me even when his not looking at me... touch my heart without saying a word... giving me the strength i need even when he's not around...

i guess... all of the above probably describe my one and only... whoever you are..~~~

cant wait to meet you my future~

2007-12-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

so yar.... i'm going to bali.... watever

2007-11-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

You're with me til the bitter end...

What we had transcends...

This experience too painful to talk about....

So I'll hold it inTil my heart can mend..

And be brave enough to love again...

A place in time still belongs to us...

Stays preserved in my mind...

In the memories there is solace...

Never too far away...

I won't let time erase

One bit of yesterday

Cause I have learned that nobody can take your place...

Though we can never be

I'll keep you close to me

mariah carey

2007-11-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

i feel darker than the night...

theres no song in my cry...

2007-11-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

i wanna turn back to the place where time stood still...

stay forever staring at you...

stay forever holding your hand...

i recall the places we've been...

stay forever smelling your scent...

stay forever sleeping beside you...

2007-11-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

its been 1 hour 13 mins and 27 sec since u've gone...
i still cant remember the last tear i cried coz it havent stop yet...
theres no empty spaces...
coz your voice still lingers...

choked myself after reaching the parking lot... it felt like my heart stopz beating...
then everything burst into a pool of tear...
you are my vulnerability...
i'm holding tyte to every promises made...
i rewind the memories shared...

stay wif me...
stay wif me...
stay wif me...

2007-10-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Hey readers....

I'm at home doing nothing obviously....

well... i did make some kueh and such... hari raya is like.... hmm... my opportunity to sleep all day?

none extraordinary thing happen as usual...

anywayz.... i bought my baju raya... purple,maroon and blue... all kebaya...

i was thinking of wearing blue on my open house.... oh btw.... everyone is cordially invited.

all i can say is that the food.... unimaginable.... haha

from barbeque king prawnz,ayam percik and what not.... to an exquisite mouth watering chocolate fudge cakes and cheesecakes plus.... my deliciously sinful homemade cupcakes and fruit tarts.

wow.... looking forward la~

so here goes :

Day/Date : Saturday,20/10/2007

Place : 552 Changi Road

Time : 3pm-12am

2007-09-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

hey guyz...i wont be blogging for awhile....

i'm busy with exams and work....

2007-09-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

make me feel awful... i dare u...

2007-09-03T18:23:00.000+08:00

Should we really retaliate to an unnecessary rudeness?? or should we willingly accept them? be it from your brother or friend or random stranger or the regular lady sitting infront of you at the bus?

some quote said that "revenge makez u no difference from them" or "revenge is not the answer".

how can we be so sure??

coz sometimes THEY need a hard slap to make THEM realise what they did was unhuman... yet if we consider a revenge we are probably a part of THEY...

2007-08-29T23:32:00.000+08:00

WHEN WE HAVE SOMETHING BOLD TO CLAIM... THERE'Z REALLY NO NEED FOR ANY ANONIMITY...

2007-08-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

Assumptionz and accusationz are 2 different wordz that can lead to a huge and unexpected fight/trouble.

we cant deny that sumtimez we are concern about what ppl might say about our attitude,lookz or watever... but accusing ppl of what they did not do is a prime evidence of how jealous one can be.

YOU are so paranoid about how those people regard YOU... and although YOU realise that YOUR attitude does SUCK...YOU continue giving meaningless remarkz to otherz juz to mask YOUR insecurities.

assuming and accusing otherz for not being loyal... assuming and accusing that they are so interested in YOUR oh-so-dramatic-and-fabulous-life... assuming and accusing that those group of people were talking about YOU...

Neglecting to question the damage of YOUR own sense of self.

Clearly YOU are NOT the victim... and the one person YOU are causing alot of injury is "YOURSELF".

believe it or not...these people do exist... and if itz YOU...

then HELLO~

2007-08-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

MAMA IS PREGNANT AGAIN...

SO I'M GONNA HAVE ANOTHER BABY

BRO/SIS...

AM SOO HAPPY LA~~~ HEH..

U'VE BEEN THERE...U'VE DONE THAT... NOW HOW CAN U NOT UNDERSTAND WAT I MEAN... I'M SORRY...

2007-07-19T17:56:00.000+08:00

tagz reply...

1stly.... i am extremely sorry for not replying the tags..

Lynn : thank you dear... link me up ok.

:D aka malai : i'm sure u've been there...yeah... thingz have been very hectic lately... oh about the comics... take ur tyme ok...hee... but i really cant wait!

Feez : hey :)

Firdaus : and u are??? @_@

2007-07-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

Gosh!!! she's gettin bigger and bigger...

Growing old is juz too much! hated it...hahaha

kidding kidding... I'm having the best tyme of my life (for now) tee hee....

laze around might juz be the next best thing... but that wont determind ur future now would it?

i have to get my ass back to work...

Sweetzzz au revoir~

2007-07-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

Love is sweet i'm sure... But sweet never last forever... so whatz my point? Well i really dont noe... i'm lost in the most deepest confusion ever...

Shud perfection be the main component... or juz a basic "compatibility"???

i'm having a massive breakdown.... ahahha

i'm busy as usual... and confused... :(

Yet i cant stop slacking! i guess i deserve the huge ass and hips! ARGH!

c u guyz ard...~!

2007-06-28T19:38:00.000+08:00

i am missing my frenz like crazy~ haha... ah well it wont be long till i graduate... 4mths left... if theres one wish i could ask from a magic lamp it'll be skipping my study tyme and fast forward to graduation.... i'm not getting any younger u know! baaaaahahaha!

on the contrary.... i'd betta not wish for that... like they say "b careful watchu wish 4..."

myb i'll be super sad after i graduate.... or myb it'll make me the happiest girl or shud i say lady? NYAHAHA!

aaaahhhhh..... all this.... who knowz...

okayz...

gotta bounce~

2007-06-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hey guyz...i really need ur support for my entrepreneurs team this Sunday 01/07/2007 at toa payoh hdb hub mall

so if u guyz decide to come dun forget to tegor2 me ok~~!!!

ok well i'll b super busy but i will definitely layan u guyz ok~~~ hahaha

really need the support laaa~~~

hahaha

LUV TO BITZ

2007-06-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

Gosh.... i need to hit back 2 the gym b4 my fat percentage getz higher...

haha

the last tyme i hit the gym was err... three or four mthz ago?? haha... well ok i only registered for 1mth at cali fitness... it was a fun experience though...

now those so called muscles are slowly becoming fatz again... :(

blame the cheesecakes and ice creamz~ my sinful yet addictive pleasure.

hahahaha!

wat the **** am i talking about.

much luv.

2007-06-02T17:31:00.000+08:00

I think i shud juz delete this blog b4 ppl starts to assume that wat i post is actually for them...

to ALL....

i'm not the type who wants to write dirty stuff or rather hurtful stuff about my own frenz.

so b4 being IMMATURE and jump to conclusion.... ask me first.

and yes....i apologise to F*S. but juz so u noe....i hav no regrets saying or doing wat i did.we really shud talk face 2 face next tyme.

have a nice day guyz.

2007-05-29T12:45:00.000+08:00

LABEL ME PURPLE

i dunno wat to say~

2007-05-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

haloooo ppl~~~

sorry for not blogging lately...

i think i'll stop blogging for awhile....

for a loooong while.... hee~~

*i want my lemon tree back*

2007-05-15T12:14:00.000+08:00

We are family~~~~ coz mama wont let me watch tv~~

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

i'm addicted to "My wife and kids"

i noe i noe they repeated that show for like 3 or 4 times at starworld.... but it never failed to make me laugh... and laugh hard...

woah... now the word fail startz to appear again in my tiny brain... ahaha... i have a tiny brain due to the accident that occured yesterday(qowaid).

anywayz... i'd rather hope for the best.

i'm having a major battleshit party goin on today...u guyz wanna join? ahahah... beeen eating lotza spicy food laaaa... haiz... luckily i can still tahan this morning.

so i dreamt my kitty massage me...well i do need a massage but not from a kitten... doooooh~ aint that weird.

so herez my update mady~~ enjoy~!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2007-05-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

BLOOD WILL ALWAYZ BE THICKER THAN WATER.

2007-05-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

I cant believe this is happening to me...

Things were getting uglier every minute... and now minutes itself turned into seconds...

my concentration startz to fade away... i feel like i'm in a really dark zone.

now itz incontrovertible that the one person who i luv most is the one person who is to blame for the worst kinda affliction.

soundz bitter at first... but it has been that way since the day i was born.

funny thing is that today though i am still conscious.... i'm hardly alive.

Mind my words... i know it doesnt make sense at all.

2007-04-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe itz better to juz neglect the thoughtz of me being with you... and maybe... juz maybe you would really tell me how u feel then...

Good night luv.

2007-04-26T18:13:00.000+08:00

I'm not here to make friends.

Making friends for my own convenience aint my thing.

2007-04-16T17:37:00.000+08:00

It was possibly the 1st blunder i did in a strongly made friendship. the disapproving glare that masked behind your "i'm ok with it" face made me feel small. i thought i was making the right choice... maybe i'm still incapable of assuring wat "right choice" supposed to be. the thought of u thinking i'm being hypocritical about what had happen was really against my intentionz.

A humongous word "GUILTY" was written on my forehead.

expecting what i did will hinder an unwanted argument... unfortunately it was a bigger mistake doing so. I know apologising wont cover the error i did which teetered the friendship we built for yearz... but i will definitely do watever it takez to atleast...stabalize the pieces that almost fall apart. A short question still lingerz in my head..."how could a small mosquito destroy a healthy precious life?" itz a metaphor...meaning "how cud a small argument with a random unknown stranger of which was never near to our well-built frenship almost destroy the frenship itself?"i mean the argument didnt even have anythin to do wif us...let me re-phrase...it SHUDNT have anythin to do with us,yet now it became one united huge mixed problem... i didnt see dat coming. does "the random unknown stranger" was to blamed? or was it the fact that i'm not being responsible as a fren to a fren?

And when itz too late... my explanation became silence thru ur earz...u start asking urself whether i'm worthy to be in ur inner circle of frenz.

i wanna hasten the tyme where i cud juz forget the awful thoughtz of whatz happening right now.yes... AWFUL is what i feel now.

save me plz...

2007-04-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

You honestly think i care?

theres really nothin wrong when pages of ur life hav been or will be tainted by unwelcome strangerz or rather unexpected visitors.you either patiently deal with it or start using ur anger which will make thingz even worst.

i prefer not to care about the thingz that they did which ultimately dont matter or affect my life. even if they do... i reckon it wont hurt that much... or will it? well...the best ques is "shud it?"

ahah! now i'm confused!

##############################

Am i that serious??

Frankly,i'd say i appeared to be nowadayz... i guess... haha. hey itz not my fault... thingz hav been very intense lately u know... ahhh... i shudnt talk about this... haha.

hayyo...
suddenly cannot type anymore... k bye.

2007-04-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

If only someone cud look through me and see what i'm goin through and the situation i'm in right now... not judging by the looks or the idiotic stuffs i did or the crappy words i said but watz underneath it all.

maybe its impossible for any human being to do such thing unless u're psychic.

aaah...i luv the rain... it helps me hide my tears...

2007-04-08T08:07:00.000+08:00

Dear mother...

I've been using every sweat and calories simply to repay the things that you sacrifice though i know it is beyond my capabilities... I'm sorry for not being the best... still trying.

to be continue......

2007-04-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

ok so i've been tagged... by nennoo...

lets get to the point which most probably u guyz are dying to noe... ahaha

since i cant cut and paste... i'll juz start writing...

6 weird things about me. (am i not weird enuf?haha)

1)i hate books but i like dictionary.(believe it or not,i read every single word)

2)i alwayz byte my nails when i get nervous or b4 i ans a question. (at sch)

3)i'm super forgetful...really... i can forget sumthin in less than a second...haha

4)i have the most ugliest middle finger...haha

5)i have a huge mouth... literally.

6)i apologise to ppl 4 no reasonz.

so shud i ask ppl to cut and paste what i juz did?well... i guess if u wanna play this game u noe wat to do... thnx to nennoo though...i had fun.

luv.

2007-03-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

After goin thru one hell of a dreadful rollercoster... everything suddenly fell into place...

Its hard to specify what i'm feeling into the most closest description coz it will never be close enuf...

Happy? nah... relief? nodda... at ease? hmm...that still doesnt quite cover it.

Aahh... perhapz itz better not to reveal "IT" at all... however i'm pretty sure itz a positive and satisfying feeling which has no connection with stress or frustration watsoever. phuueeww!

I really had a full plate of problemz nowadayz... but assuring that everything will b a-ok really helped me to overcome every single probz that occured.

As funny as this may sound...but i juz feel that hardships can be fun sometimes... although it wasnt and will never be my cup of tea. i mean... solving the complication and the puzzle of it was the most adventurous moment for the heart at least.

But for now... i wud really like to rest this cute small little heart of mine... tired... i can tell... the way it beats slowly nowadayz gave the most obvious clue. so plz... handle it with luv and care... *wink*

I'm having the most ridiculously overflowing period. argh...! (this shudnt be post but i juz cant help it! itz irritating...haha)

Love still.

2007-03-22T15:49:00.000+08:00

Hey guyz...

i'm actually mentally sick these couple of dayz... thank GOD i'm still straight... haha

anywayz...

lotsa stuffz has been very disappointing... this morning... everything was getting on my last nerve... and i really gotta get out of my sch and rest my mind, i cancelled yet another important meeting with my enterprenuer crewz...(am deeply sorry) then went to east coast.

somehow the radio knowz that i'm in need of sappy love songs. they played lotsa songs that really connect with what i'm feelin lately...

resting my mind at east coast was... a gd therapy?haha... i kinda doze off for like 2 or 3 hours... coincidentally... ryte after i woke up, the radio starts to play this particular song that brings back.... err.... nvm.

and i started to cry.

2007-03-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET CHERRYPIE MADY.

2007-03-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

I will alwayz have doubts,i will alwayz NOT trust anyone but my family... itz not a weakness,itz a shield to protect me from being hurt... it will stay with me... itz deathless.

Anywayz... yes... this is a sign that i have a lot of problems that i CAN solve it on my own... arrogance and hostile? neither both... the fact that ppl took me for granted or rather,take advantage of me, taught me to be more independent,confident of my ability and stop trusting people like i mentioned earlier.

surprisingly, these problemz actually happened to my ancestor. i guess it will never stop.

to my someone... it will not end here.... we still have a very long way to go... juz hav to figure out how we gonna make it...

luv alwayz

2007-03-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

I SHUD'VE LISTEN TO MY OWN INTUITION.

THE INFORMATION IS RYTE ON THE TIP OF MY TONGUE BUT I JUZ CANT QUITE GET IT OUT... ARGH... I'M SICK.

2007-03-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

You can think about your problems or you can worry about them, and there is a vast difference between the two.

Worry is thinking that has turned toxic.

Thinking workz itz way thru problems to conclusions and decisions, worry leavez u in a state of tensely suspended animation.

When u worry, u go over the same ground endlessly and come out the same place u started. Thinkin makez progress from one place to another; worry remains static.

lately i did alot of worrying and less thinking... even the most smallest thingz which somehow might not happen in the future... or will it? SEE....STILL WORRYING...

wat is happening to me... am i slowly turning into retarded paranoid freak? haha. no...thatz not possible.

néanmoins m'aimerez-vous même si je suis comme ceci ?

je t'aime feez...

au revoir~

2007-03-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

I'M HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH YOU...

The most special moment i spent with you...

2007-03-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

BECAUSE OF ME

"Why is that man so ugly, and the mommy so pretty?" Five-year-old Nancy tugged on her mother's arm, and pointed. "Sh! Sh!" said her mother. "You wouldn't want them to hear, would you?" "But Mommy, he's ugly! How can that pretty lady stand to look at him?" The mother glanced toward the couple her daughter was pointing at, quickly taking her child away. But every day during the sea cruise, they saw the couple. Whenever they did, Nancy buried her face in her mother's clothes. "Mommy, I just can't stand to look at him. He is so ugly," she would say.

One day Nancy and her mother, Maria, were on deck, enjoying the sea breeze. The beautiful woman came and stood beside them. She spoke a soft greeting, smiling down at Nancy. Smiling shyly back, while snuggling close to her mother, the little girl blurted out. "Why are you so pretty, and your husband so ugly?" Maria gasped at her daughter's rude question. She was about to scold her when the young woman spoke. "No, wait!" she said, "I've noticed your child looking at us quite often. I would like to tell her a story about my husband, if you will let me." Maria, although quite embarrassed, nodded her consent.

"First," began the young woman, "My name is Rosella. What is yours?" Learning that the child's name was Nancy, and her mother's was Marie, Rosella invited the two to a table, and ordered three glasses of lemonade. And then she began her story.

* * *

"Five years ago my mother and I were visiting in Florida, where we were staying at a hotel. At the same time there were some service men billeted at the same hotel. One very handsome colonel took special notice of me, persisting that I dine with him. He sent flowers to my room numerous times, and smiled at me every time I happened to come across him. My mother encouraged me to accept his offer of a meal. So, at last I did.

It was then he told me that he had fallen in love with me. He asked me if I would like to see him on a regular basis. But I found him most obnoxious, and tried my best to ignore him. "On one particular day I was especially rude to him, and I know it really hurt him. I had gone into the hotel gift shop to pick up a book to read. And there it was that I came face to face with the colonel. He smiled. He had a beautiful smile, and it made his already handsome face--well, he had the face of an angel. But I didn't return his smile. I flung my head in the air, and walked right by him. I heard him say, 'I guess this is your way of telling me to get lost.' I continued on to my room, and went to bed. My mother was already asleep, and it wasn't long before I was.

"About two hours later we were jolted out of bed by the most ear splitting sound. My mother and I scrambled into our housecoats. It was then we heard the frightening words. 'FIRE! FIRE!' Already we could see the smoky, orange shadows encircling the hotel. Colonel Brown--that was his name--was one of the first ones out of the hotel. He watched as the hotel guests fled to the safety of the fresh air. His eyes frantically searched the group in the court yard, but my mother and I were not there. He dashed inside to see if we had made it to the lobby. We hadn't. "Firemen were all around, but although they tried to stop him, Lionel broke by them, dashing through the flames to our room. He kicked the door open. My mother and I, trapped and frozen with fright, were just deciding if jumping out the window was an option. It wouldn't have been. We were three floors up."

* * *

Nancy and her mother hadn't touched their lemonade, so engrossed were they in Rosella's story. Nancy had gripped her mother's hand and her eyes were brimming with tears. Rosella paused for a minute, sipping on her lemonade; then she continued. "Lionel snatched two blankets off the bed, and flung them at us. 'Wrap this around your face,' he commanded—and it WAS a command.

Then tossing a small towel around his own face, he commanded, 'Grab my arms, and don't let go until we are outside.' "Blindly, we allowed ourselves to be guided by Lionel, until we were safely outside. But what we hadn't realized was that the towel had come off Lionel's face. His face was burned beyond recognition. He was taken immediately to the hospital where he was treated for burns all over his body. "For weeks his life hung on a thread, his face bound completely with bandages.

Although he couldn't see me, he knew I was there. My mother, by that time, had gone home. Every day I sat by Lionel's bed, holding his hand and talking soothingly to him. At last they took off his bandages. "Gone was the handsome face... But to me it was beautiful, more beautiful than it had ever been. He had received those scars because of me. If he hadn't fallen in love with me, I would have been just another hotel guest, and he wouldn't have known to single me out and worry over my mother's and my safety.

"During those weeks of attending Lionel, I had fallen in love with him. While he floated in and out of consciousness, I crooned to him how my scorn had turned to concern, and my concern had slowly been replaced by love. As soon as he was released from the hospital, we married, and have grown more in love with each other every day." "But how can you stand to look at him?" persisted Nancy. Rosella smiled. "I don't see his scarred face. I see the face of the man he was before he became scarred. And I see the face of the one who loved me enough to risk his life for me. I see the face of the man who loved me long before I loved him.

2007-02-27T19:59:00.000+08:00

Lets talk about language...

I'm in love with french no doubt...

The ascent itself makez me all tingly inside...haha

oh and... jude law makez english ascent sound so sexy...not to mention his fine and attractive lookz and his seductive eyes that probably cud look through u made it all another huge bonus...

(melts)

a few mths ago i read "oxford singlish dictionary" which was undeniably hilarious... i didnt understand more than half of the wordz but after reading through some of the examplez i was surprised that singaporeanz really use those wordz....(including me).

_______________________________________________________

so yesterday i saw an advertisement about a movie called "The pursuit of happiness". based on a true story and i read it b4 in "readers digest" once... it inspired me eversince... i never thought they'd make a movie out of it though but i'm glad they did...

watched "tyra banks show" at 6pm juz now... it saddenz me how childrenz age 5-9 year old nowadayz felt insecure about how they look... they starve themselvez juz to look thin like modelz... i mean if teenz did that... it wudnt b bizzare(although they shudnt)...but kidz? hmmm... :(
i'm super shocked.

My inability of making everything perfect for you... :'(

A love that thought me 2 struggle my way to ur heart.

au revoir~~

2007-02-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

Is it possible

That someone like you

Could complete me?

Coz i feel like nothing without you

And when i'm with you or simply thinking of you

Chills rush down my spine.

2007-02-22T18:15:00.000+08:00

itz an option and u know it from the very beginning... i wont say it out loud... eventually u will noe wat i mean... i promised myself i wont be weak especially when i'm wif u... - it was the only promise i broke.

2007-02-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2007-02-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

Taggy Reply :
to chocolateladee : thankz sweetzpie...i'm better now though... weee
to lula : haha! yar la.... u alwayz bully me.... so bad u know! but i luv u anyway.
to nats : my gosh...i never thought u'd b tagging me...wat a surprise...thnx... eh nk tumpang..? anytime la...juz gimme a beep~ luv.
amy emilya : miss? really? bahahhah!
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FRENZ ARE LIKE APPLEZ DIPPED IN A HUGE BOWL OF CHOCOLATE FUDGE!!! HEALTHY,DELICIOUS AND OH-SOOOOOO-SWEEEEET!!!!
So todayz plan went well...

hung out wif mai and mun at my crib after working for almost 7 hours! haha... i'm sucha gd daughter!! bahaha! laugh our lungs,heart,liver,stomach and watever out...we planned to play monopoly,uno etc...but i guess jokez are much more fun. oh btw...i bought new specz~ purple wif a lil bit orange on the sidez... i lost my previous specs and i'm glad! REDZZ JUZZ NOTZZ MY COLOURZZ! (therez a meaning in this pathetic phrase) COMPRENDE? NO? DUN HAV TO...
bahhahaha!
anywayz... i look so "selekeh" at almost all of e pix...but... come to think of it... who cares? i'm at my own house for cryin out loud... who the hell dress up at their own crib?! blarharharhar!
so ok...to tell u the truth i look "selekeh" at sch too... ahaha...i mean... theres no point dressing up la... unless... i have a hot date wif mr.hunk.... ahahha (*wink**wink* YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE *wink**wink*)

oh btw... last week i was sick for 3 or 4 dayz... ,cant eat,cant stand,cant walk(obviously)...i lost 2kg but gained it back the day after... itz a temporary weight lost...and i'm glad... i dun think my face suitz a skinny skeleton tengkorak-ish body... barharharhar!

oh i have to add a lil bit more... the stuff animal that mun took a pix wif is NOT sumthin that we bought ok! blarharhar! it was a gift from my lil sister's indian fren... we tot it'd b rude to throw it away... so... u noe the story la... blarharahar.. "OINK...OINK"

LoOOOoooOOOVe!

2007-02-10T18:27:00.000+08:00

i'm freakin tired.

decorating e class was one hell of a frustrating job...yadda...yadda...yadda...

drove from sch to bras basah for like 2 or 3 tymes?hmmm.... but i had fun though... coz i speed! ahahh...i noe itz illegal la...especially at a heavy traffic...and on top of that... i JUZ passed.

but hey...at least i've proven to ust.bahar dat NOT all gerlz drive slow.

iqbal and fattah started to call me "maria daytona racer"

ahahah... wadda hell.

if my parents knew about this i'll be grounded for a mth. so u guyzz.... ZZZIIP IT!

hahaha.

oh at 2pm... hung out wif mun and mai... bugis was sooooooo damn crowded and i hated it.

these past few dayz i've been missing my sis soo much. Small stuff suddenly meant alot... i miz her inspirational quotes... ok enuf about this... haha.

au revoir.

2007-02-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

two wordz...

SUPER BUSY.

no interesting stories... coz i did the same thing over and over again.

anywayz....

cant wait for the weekends. *wink*

haha.

2007-02-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE TO MY BABY BRO GANYOT!
i cried every single nyte... but that didnt stop her from leaving... on 1 february... she left 4 good... anticipating her for 1 year will b...hell... yes the pix was a fake wide smile... coz the truth is... i cried like a baby on that very day... but have to look gd 4 the camera...(but still ugly)BAHAHAHA! ok stop! i shud be sobbing! uweeek! uwweeek!

(i wont stop praying 4 her)

2007-01-29T12:45:00.000+08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

i passed my driving test...

gd newz: i can drive to sch everyday...

bad newz: more responsibility comin my way...

so itz not juz "hooray hooray i can drive" type of excitement huh...

i wont stop praying to GOD though... the ONE who made this all happened in e 1st place...

not forgetting the most supportive and loving family... they sacrifice lotsa tyme, energy and money...especially my DAD...he helped me alot with my driving...lotsa luv.

i also thnx to my ever-loving frenz and crazemates that hav been praying for me....treat u guyz swensen...want? ahahha.

anywayz...

i make frenz with lotsa girlz at frenster... sadly...i'm tooo bz laa...but we'll meet sum other tyme? so sorry...i'll let u guyz noe when i'm free...

LOVE.

i can do silly thingz when i'm with you...

2007-01-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

The love we give away is the only love we keep.

sumthin i did long tyme ago... and now... itz a miracle...

2007-01-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

So went to jurong point(gosh...so far...) with moon today...was gonna meet up with ima(a fren i met at frenster) but we cancelled due to her complication... ahahah....

actually...todayz plan was different and it ended up different... understood?no? ahahha

anywayz ate at long john silver, and theres a couple of BOYS...(16-17 yearz old) trying hard to hit on us...ahaha... oh me goshy gosh... i'm like practically 20...ahahah...and to top it all off... none of them were attractive...ahaha...i'm evil.

so i shop till i almost drop...and b4 ending the adventurous and thrilling ride of u know...shopping... we decided to pamper ourselves at e beauty salon which was oh-so-heavenly awesome... stressed then felt much more...LIGHTER? is that the ryte word...?haha.

finally went home with a huge dimply smile...

:-D

2007-01-21T09:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with my OLD frenz....haha... we talked almost about everything...it was great? no... it was beyond that~ anyone noe e word...? haha...