-My Life-
Sunday, December 31, 2006
10:00 PM
Today: i'm sitting here all alone... ate tonz of junkfood a.k.a chocolatez...yummy yummy chocolatez... anyway... juz now i was browsing through some of my past memories... 2004... 2005... but not 2006... itz too painful to even think about it... i realise how blessed i am to have frenz that never for a minute turn their backs on me... but human nature... we take them for granted...
slowly... i've learned not to be vulnerable towards the ppl i thought i love... perhaps... its better to know them for several years and know their true colours before making the decision to be close to them...
and then theres a diversity of people... which we have to be aware of... thinking that boys are all the same or girls always cheat are not the most intellectual way of assuming or judging others... although i'm now not use to interact with people after 1 year of not socialising... i'm not even going to try as i have to gather the frenz that i once lost... myb then... i'll try to socialize more...
tyme will never anticipate for our presence to be in a meeting or examz or any other challenges... regreting and crying over the condition and tragedy that we are in right now is a huge waste of the most precious tyme... although in some ways the way i type may sound frigid and feelingless... in reality its better to wipe the tears off as we are actually heading to a new beginning which will lead to a better territory... its rocklike even for me... but theres no other choice but to bare with it... coz we've made a wrong decision earlier on...for that...we have to re-do the mistakes... otherwise we'll be a loser in every challenges that comes in...
Saturday: had lunch with my family and the workers of my parents company~~ mummy and daddy blanje the workers~~ it was great~~ even my two maids came along... oh and my sister's boyfren was invited too... ate at han river... the place was better than seoul garden in terms of the tomyum soup... they use paste rather than juz soup... i figure its better that way coz if the soup is tasteless we can juz add more paste... in terms of the meat... hmmm... i'm not sure coz i dun eat meat... except for fish and chicken...
so after lunch we went to courts at tampines... window shopping... and of coz free massage(osim)... haha...
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Friday, December 29, 2006
8:49 PM
went to S.I.R juz now... sadly... i wont be going on a vacation with my family coz my passport will be expire in 2 mthz... so technically its already expired coz i cant use it anymore...stupid...
so juz now i was too pissed off and hungry.... ahahah...
so ate alone at raffles hospital banquet...
done~
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Thursday, December 28, 2006
9:07 PM
Dear frenz... thanx for the concernz... lately i felt better and ermm...juz better...hehe... to rahimah aka miss tembamz(hehe)... thankiu for cheering me up yesterday...
itz funny how sumtimes we never knew the frenz that rarely spoken to u are the frenz that will alwayz be there for u... for that... i thank you... again...
anywayz... went out with my sisters... shopping as usual but i didnt buy anything...
4hours of sleeping is officially my new habit... sumhow... i cant sleep these pass few dayz... and its suckier knowing that every night i'll juz lay down looking at the empty and dull wall beside me until i fell asleep...
No matter how hard i seem to try u turn around and twist my words into a lie...
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
8:30 PM
my tears have fallen harder than rain
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Monday, December 25, 2006
11:19 AM
went out with my family on xmas eve... had fun at first until we reached ikea tamp...it was packed full of people... ahaha... daddy : da tkd parking... balik balik! EXIIIIIT!! EXIIIT!!~~ (with his indonesian accent)mommy : jom makan rojaaaak!!! hujan2 ni mesti sedaaap~~~ yey!!haha... they are like the most cutest couple ever...~~anywayz...in the end we went shopping for rojak stuff... i choose the green apple coz thatz my only fav fruit for rojak...haha... bought 10 green apples~~ yummy~
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
10:53 AM
i've been trying to update my posts but sumhow i kept on pressing the "delete" button... well... since i'll be going out with my sisters... mybe i'll update more posts later... anyway... i'm dying to watch "curse of the golden flower" but i cant watch that movie alone... dat b embarrassing...see... i shud socialize more to get more frenz... tootloo~~
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
10:43 PM
Frozen within a "guilt" dimension... useless of escaping thru any angle... underneath me... underneath my clothes... underneath this bones... my vulnerability of telling the truth... cried myself to sleep... yet still awaken by the sins that i cudnt forget... convincing myself of wat i did was right... but not a soul agrees with me...
dear stranger...
i'm perfectly awake... if what i did was wrong through your eyes... there's no regrets through mine...
dear stranger...
i am guilty of trying to do the right thing... i close my eyes but you were never there inside my every dream...
dear stranger...
i sobbed and soaked my pillow... yet theres still no thoughts of you in my nearby future...
dear stranger...
i'm effortless to change your anger into something much more sweeter... but i prayed every night to heal the heartache that hurts every part of your body...
dear stranger...
i tried to find the right words... i tried to make the most peaceful ending... but you dont want to understand...
dear stranger...
i apologise
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Monday, December 18, 2006
7:10 PM
one is wrong for telling the truth.... one is despicable when they make a decision with good intentions... one will be called a frigid insensitive individual when expressing their true feelings and NOT being hypocritical about anything...
sometimes it seems unfair... but we did that for a good reason... if theres another option... a better option... it will never be anything but this... they have the power to judge only based on one side of the book... but will it be fair to trash,ignore and refuse to believe the other side?
we talk... but we never listen... we see... but we never look beyond others appearance... we walk... but we never stop simply to help throw the banana skin that eventually will injure others... cruel?
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
12:28 PM
we appear happy in any situation or occasion... we forced to smile for others while our heart disintegrate into fragment pieces... though anger tried to take over... we overcome it all with nothing... nothing at all... thatz not miracle nor is it a phenomenon... itz more than anyone could imagine...
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
4:04 PM
my whole body aches... went to the gym like two dayz ago and my body still aches like hell... haha... note to self... dun exercise to the extreme... cant take it laaa...~~but i was shocked when i had my check up... i'm the most healthiest among my mom and sis~~ yet i'm the weakest when it comes to u know... exercises...btw...i didnt get to watch project runway yesterday... darn it...have you ever met someone whom somehow felt pleasure when seeing others fall???
well... i did...
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
12:39 AM
went out with mua sis yesterday... shop for shoes and bags... luvz it... we bought like tonz of shoes at far east... took loadza pix but my sis wont let me upload 'em all in mua blog...(uweeekk...uweek...!) so these are the lucky onez... haha... will be hangin out with her again on wednesday... yey!
went out with moony on sunday... we had superrr fun... oh ya... bump into feez... didnt notice him coz he looks like a bangla(sowie eh)... and FYI i'm not sombong la... ahaha... 
sometimez we ignored the most important people in our life... but they never leave us instead they forgive and forget... life then felt sweeter... but we tend to forget them all over again... silence... the only thing they do... yet still giving us a helping hand...
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happy family~~
siblingz~~~
two best lil siblings~
i wanna poop~ and i like my heels~ (ok doesnt make sense...watever)
lalalalala~~~
smelly...so so smelly~~oh...introducing...behind are my shy maids..~ hehe
me so the kaku laa~~
for a moment there... i feel lucky... bahha~
models wannabe
soooo fetch~
auww~~ my bro mrajok ngan ah goa(worker) ke??ahaha...so gay la 
we are chocoholic...(watever that meanz) weee~~~
my lil bro with my sister's boyfren... they look gay-ish... ahaha
my siblings without my lil sis~ 
