-My Life-
Monday, April 16, 2007
5:37 PM
It was possibly the 1st blunder i did in a strongly made friendship. the disapproving glare that masked behind your "i'm ok with it" face made me feel small. i thought i was making the right choice... maybe i'm still incapable of assuring wat "right choice" supposed to be. the thought of u thinking i'm being hypocritical about what had happen was really against my intentionz.A humongous word "GUILTY" was written on my forehead.expecting what i did will hinder an unwanted argument... unfortunately it was a bigger mistake doing so. I know apologising wont cover the error i did which teetered the friendship we built for yearz... but i will definitely do watever it takez to atleast...stabalize the pieces that almost fall apart. A short question still lingerz in my head..."how could a small mosquito destroy a healthy precious life?" itz a metaphor...meaning "how cud a small argument with a random unknown stranger of which was never near to our well-built frenship almost destroy the frenship itself?"i mean the argument didnt even have anythin to do wif us...let me re-phrase...it SHUDNT have anythin to do with us,yet now it became one united huge mixed problem... i didnt see dat coming. does "the random unknown stranger" was to blamed? or was it the fact that i'm not being responsible as a fren to a fren? And when itz too late... my explanation became silence thru ur earz...u start asking urself whether i'm worthy to be in ur inner circle of frenz.i wanna hasten the tyme where i cud juz forget the awful thoughtz of whatz happening right now.yes... AWFUL is what i feel now.save me plz...
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